Disagreement......

       Of all things that we had change, something just doesn't change. I am still me, dislike people to assume my thoughts or even say it as if they really know me very well..When I pointed out what I dislike, simply hope that you can notice it and try not to repeat the mistake, and you will be very defensive. Is it really because my way of interrupt you while you were expressing your opinion? or because you felt offended or disrespect from me, which is much more younger than you, telling you not to do so?
   
       Well, I am not intended to do so, if you ever felt disrespect. Can you use some words to soften or put it less "assumption" way, by using the word "I think", "maybe" ? This will be definitely sounds so much better than you start the sentence by "You do this because of .......". Do you really think this way of saying is just purely, simply is your opinion, not assuming? In that case where you sticks to OPINION, I can say nothing much. Telling you that I am not happy with assumption, not to embarrass you, it is just to remind you when you tend to stepping in my red zone.

       Typing out my feelings here is not to stress on how much I disagree with you, or humiliate you. If you happened to read this, please think over again am I being over-reactive or WE can make an adjustment. Not good to assume when you have no idea what I gone through, and as the same goes to I do not understand your life entirely too. It is good sometimes to be careful in speaking. Not to make you to be all-time worry to communicate with me, it is just less hurting me or ruining my day.

       I admitted that I had over-reacted a little which the tones were not too good. Sorry. I do not like it either, to have any argument.  When I mentioned that I do not want to discuss about it, please accept that I do not have the mood to make discussion turn into argument. I am not hanging you there by not giving elaboration. I just need more time to rethink, rephrase and process it of how to explain myself. It is tired if everything needed to be reasoned. I would appreciate much if you able to understand. Not everything has the need to be discussed in detail. 

難過

自從那天后
幾乎每一天我都在掙扎
每一天我都在問自己
真的決定這樣了嗎
確定了嗎


就這樣過了兩三個禮拜
以爲會慢慢變好
有時會擔心
回到了吉隆坡會怎樣
以爲自己好了
沒事了
與朋友笑說沒事
與朋友出去瘋顛

到了今天
這一通電話
再次讓我哭了
問題依舊在

我只是希望你讀了那本書
多少會瞭解我的不可理喻
我的任性     我爲什麽沒耐心
你很堅決的說不！

也許勸你讀一本書來改善我們
只在我看來有用
對你來説    不管用   
因爲問題出現在我身上

你說一路來你一直被我罵
覺得自己無能
都在忍受
你也反問了我
你有沒有罵過我

我很想告訴你
你説話的方式
就足以讓我萬箭穿心
因爲在乎    所以真的痛


我們大家都不了解對方
你的看法=訴説我的錯
我的解釋=對你的辱駡
如果大家再繼續
只會繼續磨損大家的自信心

在外面受了委屈
回到來    我只需要安慰
哪怕一點點就好
靜靜呆在我身邊
讓我知道    我還有你可以靠
可是     在你看來
都很無謂     很幼稚
在我聽來     你只是更深一層
再次把我打入地獄

說真的
我真的不捨
我深深愛過
我真的用心過
也許太在乎是一種問題

就像個巨蟹
我太軟弱
需要支持
當得不到的時候
我堅硬的外殼
會替我反抗

今天有個朋友清唱了一段
I Won't Give Up -- On Us
我崩潰了
有多少次我告訴自己
我要執子之手
但    結果卻是要如此折磨人